Have you ever found yourself wondering why you can't seem to get out of that rut your in? I have... I think that every day. Wake up, brush teeth, put on cloths, run for bus, meander the halls until class, sit and work, walk to next class, sit and work, etc... It never ends. The part that scares me is not the routine of it all: no, it is the fact that I feel numb while I do it. It is almost as if I were looking at my body doing these things rather than actually doing them. This scares me to death. To think that I have let myself become this--this robot for lack of better words. Sends shivers up and down my spine.
Is it possible to stops this routine? Better yet, do I want to stop it? The numbness may scare me, but it also stops me from being hurt. How many times should I have cried last term but I didn't: I couldn't. A good friend of mine was killed in a car crash: did I cry? No. My mother was even more of Bit** this last term: did I cry? No. Not even when I confessed to a dear friend of mine that I was--still am--scared of myself. Scared of what I could do when I am angry. Not even then...I think the real question is do I want all of that. Do I want to be able to feel something other than the numbness?
Thursday, June 12, 2008
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
What CAN you do about it?
The summer is a time for relaxation for students is it not? Yet, left and right I see teens with their heads buried in text books, trying desperately to grasp the subject at hand. What happened to care free summers? What happened to the joy of sleeping in until noon only to wake up and hang out with your friends at the lake? Have they been replaced with school work?
True, there are worse things students could have lost their summers to, but is it healthy? Is it healthy to stress such young people with mass amounts of work. Homework piled on top of a full time job can take it's toll on the younger population. I have seen it in the faces of many students. The lack of sleep they get because they had to stay up all night to finish the ten page research paper they were assigned.
The amazing thing about these students though is that they are willing to put forth such effort for their education. In the news you always hear about how the school system is "failing". There is never anything good being spoken about it. You never hear about the students who fought for a certain "type" of students to be allowed to play sports, or how a group of students got together to raise money for a fellow student to help find a cure for his disease. No, never do they report the advances our student body has made. The only thing you hear about is the school shootings and how the district needs money for such and such.
As much as I can talk about the students i can talk about the teachers. I believe that teachers are what hold the students together. Their are some truly wonderful teachers out there who make going to school worth while. They are what hold schools together, because without students you have no school. the district does not need to spend it's valuable money on new television sets. NO. Give the teachers a raise. Make new classes. Its obvious the students want more courses to choose from. Otherwise, why else would they be taking summer courses?
Honestly, it is hard to be a student. It's hard to know when you have reached a breaking point in the amount of stress your body can take. Why do we do this to ourselves? Because there is no other way for us to prove ourselves.
True, there are worse things students could have lost their summers to, but is it healthy? Is it healthy to stress such young people with mass amounts of work. Homework piled on top of a full time job can take it's toll on the younger population. I have seen it in the faces of many students. The lack of sleep they get because they had to stay up all night to finish the ten page research paper they were assigned.
The amazing thing about these students though is that they are willing to put forth such effort for their education. In the news you always hear about how the school system is "failing". There is never anything good being spoken about it. You never hear about the students who fought for a certain "type" of students to be allowed to play sports, or how a group of students got together to raise money for a fellow student to help find a cure for his disease. No, never do they report the advances our student body has made. The only thing you hear about is the school shootings and how the district needs money for such and such.
As much as I can talk about the students i can talk about the teachers. I believe that teachers are what hold the students together. Their are some truly wonderful teachers out there who make going to school worth while. They are what hold schools together, because without students you have no school. the district does not need to spend it's valuable money on new television sets. NO. Give the teachers a raise. Make new classes. Its obvious the students want more courses to choose from. Otherwise, why else would they be taking summer courses?
Honestly, it is hard to be a student. It's hard to know when you have reached a breaking point in the amount of stress your body can take. Why do we do this to ourselves? Because there is no other way for us to prove ourselves.
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